When given a great opportunity or task have you ever felt unworthy, not experienced enough or afraid you might mess it up? Do you have moments when you feel as though no one understands you? It’s the worst kind of feeling and deny it or not, we’ve all been there at one time or another. I often wondered if Jesus may have had moments like this too. I mean, He was human as much as He was Divine, wouldn’t he suffer the same human frailties at times? I know this is a very hard concept, but hypothetically speaking just image the possibility.
If we look at the scriptures, we learn that Jesus lived a fairly ordinary life until he turned 30 the legal age to begin ministry. At 30, we learn that John the Baptist baptized him in the water and the Holy Spirit giving him a special anointing in preparation for his new ministry. Could this new role that he was not familiar with yet, have been overwhelming for him if even just briefly? The scriptures then tell us that following the baptism the Spirit immediately led Him into the desert where he was alone and tempted by the devil. I wonder if during that time alone he wrestled with God over His human side. You know, the side that may have felt unworthy, not good enough or fearful that he may mess it up. Maybe, just maybe, God allowed the devil to tempt him to build his confidence because God knew he was ready to face the challenge ahead, and Jesus needed to know that he was ready.
I mean it happened again at the wedding feast of Cana when he told his mother “his time had not come yet.” She insisted it did and told the waiters to do whatever he said. He needed a little push of confidence. After Jesus desert experience, the angels spiritually restored him then he picked his disciples and began his ministry. Did you ever think that when you are struggling and feeling this way that God is showing you that you are ready? He is waiting for you to let go and trust him that he prepared you enough for what is coming next in your life? We tend to get weak in the knees because we have trouble believing that God doesn’t call the qualified he qualifies the called. He says you are worthy, good enough and able for He lives within you and loves you. Don’t let the devil tempt you to believe his lies, trust in the power of your Holy Spirit education and stand tall believing you can.
“He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along.”Psalm 40:2
“What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us?” Romans 8:31